Logan Paul was faltering. You could see it as he took a shot from KSI in the third round of Saturday’s YouTube boxing extravaganza. KSI had shored a right perforate on the left side of Paul’s head, and Paul’s legs temporarily crumbled. His knees smacked the canvas, and Paul’s left weapon wrap itself around KSI’s waist. Referee Jack Reiss erroneously regulated it a slip instead of a legitimate knockdown, but Paul seemed to be stupefied and somewhat confused as Reiss implored him to stand up to continue the show. But the course of the contest had changed.
A few minutes later, Paul was pausing. You could see it in his eyes when Michael Buffer announced KSI as the champion of their rematch. Before Buffer’s proclamation, Paul, with his arm raised in triumph, looked slightly hopeful and yet wholly watchful, because with either outcome, his life would change. Three daylights before the fight, the Daily Dot queried Paul if it certainly mattered who won the fight–would anybody certainly care as his career continued on afterward–and he said ” Yeah, it matters. A winning is the only option .” When KSI’s refer emerged from Buffer’s mouth, Paul lowered his arm and briefly pursed his cheeks. He turn in his robe and briefly rumpled with his mane before congratulating KSI and telling him how much he respected him. Afterward, Jake Paul, Logan’s younger brother, cried in the locker chamber, but there were no evident ruptures from the older Paul.
Nearly two years ago, Logan Paul was beating. That’s when he made the biggest mistake of his life, venturing into Japan’s Aokigahara Forest and recording the. He uploaded the likeness to his YouTube account, and almost immediately, his macrocosm changed. He became the pariah of the online life, and more, he became more famous than ever before. He lost millions of dollars, but he gained millions of new followers and consignments of brand-new attention and, through everything is, he’s come out onward. That video and the consequence deepened such courses of his life.
Paul is now 24 years old. He’s made a lifetime of corrects for the entire world to see and to analyze. He’s built himself from a northeastern Ohio kid into a YouTube star with 20 million customers. He’s a neophyte boxer who just got paid $900,000 to headline a fight card that apparently drew more observers to DAZN than any other boxing match ever. He’s still a celebrity to the preteens.
Yet, he oftentimes realizes it seem as though he never learned the lessons from the Japanese suicide forest. He’s said for a few months. He. He.
Paul, though, is tired of apologizing to his critics. They’re still there, of course. Trolls blast him online. YouTubers won’t make him ignore. Reporters continue to ask him about Japan. But at some station, Paul has chanted them out of his psyche. He feels he must.
” I don’t know if I’m so concerned about people who have that mindset and how they make ,” Paul told the Daily Dot.” They don’t define my future. I’m not going to let them shift their narrative onto me. It’s been two years since Japan. In five years, it’ll have been seven years ago. At some quality, it’ll be insignificant .”
The Japan incident will always discolour him. People will ever ask him about it. But in the years ahead, those questions won’t be as prevalent, and the blot eventually had started to fade away.
” If I retire or got upset every time somebody questioned me[ about Japan ], it would affect me because I know I would have quit ,” Paul said.” I had to take a deep introspective dive and recognize the only person who can change the path of my life is me. They can hop on with their cancel culture bandwagon if they want to. But it’s my fault if I listened to them .”
In the moments after his loss last-place Saturday, Paul was stumbling. He credited KSI, but he too questioned referee Jack Reiss’ decision to dock him two retribution details in the middle of the fight, leading many in the crowd of 12,000 to begin booing him.” Am I wrong ?” he asked.
For some, Paul will never be right.
Afterward, Jake Paul was angry. He lashed out at Shannon Briggs, Logan Paul’s coach, and after he was asked by Briggs if Jake denounced the coach for the loss, he said,” I’m not looking for anyone to blame. I’m just saying, bro, stop being like,’ Hey, you got this, bro .'”
That’s when Logan interjected.” But I do got this ,” he said.
” What do you got ?” Jake asked.
” Yeah? You’ve got what ?”
” I’ve got this .”
A few minutes later, Logan comforted Jake as he strangled up again at the thought of his older brother losing the fight.” It’s weird because Logan managed the loss better than I did ,” Paul said on his YouTube channel.
Jake Paul’s question remains. What does Logan Paul have now? Which dovetails into the Daily Dot’s prefight is the issue of where Logan Paul is going. He’s cut route back on his YouTube vlogs, but, the nations of the world of podcasts, the world of music videos, and the nations of the world of mainstream behaving. Not even Paul is sure exactly where he’s headed.
” I don’t know ,” he said and after pausing he continued,” I’m agitated to be where I am. On the delineate of Logan Paul in his YouTube career, it’s hard to pinpoint where I am. When the Japan thing happened, all I saw were tweets about how Logan Paul ruined his busines or that my job was over. I didn’t even know I had a career. That to me sounds like you’re on a move that you’ve made up. I do what I can and it tends to work because I working very hard. I’m right where I want to be right now .”
The truth is Paul never stops faltering or pausing. He stumbles and utters blunders all the time. Maybe it’s because his mistakes are good for his bank account or maybe because he’s been forced to mature into a follower in front of millions. But he’s also ever learning: about himself, about how to constitute himself a versatile hotshot in today’s online culture, about how to sidestep the self-planted landmines and to maybe stop creating them. Commentators will continue to critique him and trolls will continue to remind him about Japan–maybe forever.
But Paul has also learned this: How to stop caring and move on.